{"id":129,"date":"2006-12-14T21:19:00","date_gmt":"2006-12-14T21:19:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/?p=129"},"modified":"2023-02-26T22:25:37","modified_gmt":"2023-02-26T22:25:37","slug":"let-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/2006\/12\/14\/let-go\/","title":{"rendered":"let go"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">this beat is getting me electric. laid-back ecstatic.\u00a0<em>if you want a ride, don\u2019t ride the white horse.<\/em>\u00a0my perfect traintrack. i checked every seat, no one left a half-devoured New York Times for me. my friend didn\u2019t get on today, or he hasn\u2019t left Boston yet. can\u2019t postpone the lack of inspiration, have to look it smilingly in the face and.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">with all my pride, i can\u2019t write about the fat anger i smother, the sickness i swallowed. but, and yet, and still, i can\u2019t escape hoping that if i just write it out, let it out, make it, shape it into a project, share <em>everything<\/em> from fierce surface to twisted intestines, i\u2019ll get better. it\u2019s so easy to hide, like drinking water. it only happens in my own thoughts, so why risk it? instead of ending up healed and glowing, i could end up pathetic. boo-hoo. i won\u2019t tell. never, never tell. never is a long day. and this distinction of inside my head and outside, i know it\u2019s only cellophane. it sounds like crackling fire when you crush it in your hands.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>this beat is getting me electric. laid-back ecstatic.\u00a0if you want a ride, don\u2019t ride the white horse.\u00a0my perfect traintrack. i checked every seat, no one left a half-devoured New York Times for me. my friend didn\u2019t get on today, or he hasn\u2019t left Boston yet. can\u2019t postpone the lack of inspiration, have to look it&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/2006\/12\/14\/let-go\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">let go<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-129","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/129","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=129"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/129\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":130,"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/129\/revisions\/130"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=129"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=129"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.technekai.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=129"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}