no granola

a little hole formed in the curtain that separates fresh yogurt from spoiled curds. the expiration date began to leak through. on monday, i noticed all the tubs and cups of yogurt in the grocery store were only seven days away from going bad. i splurged on a thick greek yogurt and ate it right… Continue reading no granola

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the fog.

the book i’m reading mentions sleep. i fantasize about square feather pillows, European dimensions. some would be cool and soft, others firm and warm from my breath. one i would wrap my arms around. it doesn’t matter what color the pillowcase is, because i’ll have my eyes closed. the pillows will absorb the weight. my… Continue reading the fog.

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i keep praying

PRAYER FOR MY SISTER NOT TO HATE ME NO MORE glory be to something we had before. when i turned seven you woke up early when i did to open the presents, and read the firstchapter of Bambi to me. it is still my favorite book. when i turned twenty-eight i checked my phone every… Continue reading i keep praying

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i pray some more

PRAYER FOR IMAGINARY BEINGS protect the people who don’t exist, who are made of nothing but words or childhood beliefs—keep them from invisible harm and threats not present, comfort them if the love they receive isn’t real…. PRAYER FOR THE BODY dear body,it’s time to smooth some anti-bacterial cream over your troubled relationship with my… Continue reading i pray some more

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after dark

for the third week in a row, i missed the last train of thought. no use waiting in the station, the next train would come by hours from now. long, empty hours. fluorescent lighting sucking the life out of my eyes, wooden benches with stiff backs only a book could sit on with any degree… Continue reading after dark

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the sentence.

I thought I smelled bad after. Walking in, the sun so I sprayed the bathroom perfume. On my t-shirt normally I would. Never have bathroom perfume much, less rose-scented bathroom. Perfume. But my mother-in-law was. At L’Occitane, and bought it. For us I never wear perfume. Making it, all the more odd: that I should… Continue reading the sentence.

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I wrote something here before, but it got deleted, or the ink turned white, like ancient hair.

I have climbed those stairs so many times my calves have grown large and strong.I am climbing the stairs, feeling the strain on my calf muscles.I have been climbing these stairs for days, feeling my stockings stretch tight across my calves as they swell with new muscle. She gets drunk every Thursday.She gets drunk.She gets… Continue reading I wrote something here before, but it got deleted, or the ink turned white, like ancient hair.

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44 steps in providence, idea for project

for (count = 1, count <=44, count++) {photos();walk fourty-four steps;} function photos () {point camera at feet, capture photo;point camera eye level, face forward, capture photo;point camera eye level, face left, capture photo;point camera eye level, face right, capture photo;}

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cupid

how can one body pack so many pounds of ugly feeling, then aim it directly towards itself. it’s not right. it’s not the way to success and future glamourshine. hold on i have to go make some tea.(brew)she’s nuts!and cream, and sugar, and butterfat. down her throat into the belly, bypassing nutrition due to craving… Continue reading cupid

quiet essay, pt 2

In Holland, the government has reacted to predictions of a silence shortage by establishing Silent Zones (Stiltegebieden), defined as areas “in which the sound load caused by human activity is not high enough to disturb the natural sounds in the area.” My quiet is not the lack of sound. I am trying to make a… Continue reading quiet essay, pt 2

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